SnowyOnyx

So much yearning and desire from deep inside of me I want you to want me if I find you attractive But why, when you get a taste, do you always flee I'm looking for love in all the wrong places is what they say They don't want me let down by meaningless companionships But I just broke free, and all I want is to play As soon as one is done with me I move to the next I feel like I need attention and attraction constantly I'm too impatient to wait for the "proper" context I'll admit I'm not exactly proud of all of this But it is what it is and what's done is done The feel, the taste, the scent of you, sends me into bliss I can't stop, I feel

Used to spend time Alone with myself Would create things Had time to just think Now all my time Is spent working two jobs To make money To pay all the bills Day after day Monotonous jobs And time slips away Insanity at brink Want to do somthing Worthwhile and good ’Cause time goes so fast It gives me the chills Feel like I have No true identity No music or style Don’t know what I think Feeling average and boring Sometimes shallow and dumb I’m missing common knowledge And lacking of skills When I do get a moment It’s usually wasted So stuck on the shallow Can’t step outside the rink Wan

   Such beautiful bonds of friendship and connection   As of any I have ever seen   All of you finding your places   In the orchestra   For this symphony   Called life, and living, and loving   And you all blend and mix-match together   Oh so perfectly,   You have polished it off tonight   Oh so beautifully    So the tears stream down    As I look through the window    Observing your symphony    And as I do, I feel so set apart    As no one's gazing back at me    But then I know it's not your fault    The blame all goes to me    Because I never did enough    To be deserving of a part    In this lovely symphony    Altho

The flow of life suddenly stopped 90 minutes ago Things came to the point when I was left to myself And my emptiness and discomfort continues to grow What's the point of anything when no one's there I have much less motivation When my experiences aren't something I can share I don't need nonstop interaction But I feel so lost without the option While continually alone life brings much less satisfaction I have important things I need to do But I can hardly focus on those Not like when I am with you So uneasy and depressed and sad Why can't I handle a few hours on my own It's really not supposed to be this bad